Years ago, when I first hit bottom and ended up in a substance abuse center, I learned that I was allergic to drugs.
I was told I suffered from a disease that had no cure but that it could be arrested and that recovery was possible.
My substance abuse counselor was a recovering addict who had sixteen years clean.
He explained that the very first thing that I needed to do if I wanted lasting recovery was to accept that I could not use drugs successfully.
It has been difficult for me to accept this.
I have always had a reservation.
This reservation has taken me out several times.
Today I’m working on first things first.